In one morning, I finished all that was required for the coding of Exp5. Julien came and said he received those pictures that I took at Jaro’s farewell dinner. He said Jaro would be back in September but it’s a pity that I wouldn’t be around by then. I said that was why I didn’t tell Jaro we would see each other in the near future. I said in “some” future because I agreed with Jaro that the dinner would probably be the last time we see each other. Then Laurent turned around and said see each other in the next life then. And laughed at his own joke. I can’t blame him. It is always the innate ability of morons to act this way. I really don’t feel like typing this now. Tired. Super tired. Not that kind of exhaustion after a run. Just that it had been a long long time since I had a good laugh, told a good joke, scolded a friend “you cb!!!” and stuffs like that. I did have a lot of fun here at times, esp. playing soccer. But it is that kind of unfamiliar fun. A type of fun that I can’t associate myself with but yet I am having it. I can’t help but think of Loi who used to say “ni men bian le. Ba wo tui gei ta men. Sui ran ta men you xiao wo de jokes, dan na xiao sheng shi na mo de kong xu… ru ci de mo sheng” (you guys have changed. Pushed me to them. Although they did laugh at my jokes, but their laughter sounds so empty, so alien…). He said this jokingly during one of the garang guni we had and he was grouped with unfamiliar people instead of with us. Alright, I shall pause for now and listen to some music before continuing. Think I can’t take it anymore.
After half an hour of listening to beautiful music (which is my own recorded singing), I had somewhat feel better now. Ok. So even though being with an idiot, I still put on a smile when talking to Laurent because I guess he is quite useful at times. And I went for lunch with him and Nicolas. Today there were just the 3 of us. Although I played soccer with Nico every week, we didn’t talk much and so the lunch was pretty awkward. Then Laurent suddenly asked Nico about his work in IRISA, and he asked that in English. Nico and I were caught by surprised. It is weird to have 2 French speaking in English with each other. So Nico had to answer in English. I told them it was alright if they speak in French. But Laurent just wanted to humiliate himself and so I let him be. After lunch I went back to work and also did some planning on my tour. I had decided to drop Loire Valley and Amsterdam and go for Barcelona. I chose Barce instead of Amsterdam because Holland is in Northern Europe and for most part of our tour we would be around that region; London, Belgium, Paris. Spain would be a very different experience I feel, Latin, Flamingo dance, exotic atmosphere, etc. Then I went on to look at the FYP list. Out of the 600 projects, I had chosen 30 that interest me and out of this 30, there are about 6 or 7 that I would really like to have. I also re-choose some of the PEs because of the project.
At around 5pm, I was working on my report when my sup came. He could tell that I was tired and asked why do I sound so disappointed when I greeted him. I must have a very bad tone. I was sick of my work I wanted to tell him. Sick of the life here. But instead I told him because I had to make a choice out of 600 projects for my FYP. And I admitted that I was a bit tired and was about to doze off and was caught by surprise by his sudden appearance. He asked do I need him to come back awhile later and I said no; I am all ready to discuss work now. I demo to him Exp5 and he said excellent. It was what he wanted. But he still asked me to make some adjustments. Then I showed him the bonus technique that I done. I was just showing him for fun but he was scrutinizing the program very carefully. In the end he asked me to make some amendments and asked what kind of experiment can we have for this new technique. Wah Lao. This technique is just a side dish which is supposed to be used to pass time. Now he wants me to prepare something for it. I told him Exp4 is still halfway done. We still need 4 participants for that. And Exp5 we need another 10. He said don’t worry. He would get Franck to get those students to come and do. I thought by showing some progress in work, I would perhaps have some free time in the next few days and thus can go down to the prefecture. Instead I got more tasks.
But I can understand why he needed to rush. My time here is running out. As planned, I am supposed to write my paper in May and now it is already mid April. Actually if I had stopped at Exp3, I am now in fact ahead of time. But with the birth of Exp4, 5 and perhaps 6, I really need to add oil now. On top of that I still have to submit IA report, FYP selection, plan the tour which I am really feeling sian already, etc. That explains my high fatigue level. Xin Li Jiao Cui. I am tired in my brain, tired in my body, tired in my heart.
After half an hour of listening to beautiful music (which is my own recorded singing), I had somewhat feel better now. Ok. So even though being with an idiot, I still put on a smile when talking to Laurent because I guess he is quite useful at times. And I went for lunch with him and Nicolas. Today there were just the 3 of us. Although I played soccer with Nico every week, we didn’t talk much and so the lunch was pretty awkward. Then Laurent suddenly asked Nico about his work in IRISA, and he asked that in English. Nico and I were caught by surprised. It is weird to have 2 French speaking in English with each other. So Nico had to answer in English. I told them it was alright if they speak in French. But Laurent just wanted to humiliate himself and so I let him be. After lunch I went back to work and also did some planning on my tour. I had decided to drop Loire Valley and Amsterdam and go for Barcelona. I chose Barce instead of Amsterdam because Holland is in Northern Europe and for most part of our tour we would be around that region; London, Belgium, Paris. Spain would be a very different experience I feel, Latin, Flamingo dance, exotic atmosphere, etc. Then I went on to look at the FYP list. Out of the 600 projects, I had chosen 30 that interest me and out of this 30, there are about 6 or 7 that I would really like to have. I also re-choose some of the PEs because of the project.
At around 5pm, I was working on my report when my sup came. He could tell that I was tired and asked why do I sound so disappointed when I greeted him. I must have a very bad tone. I was sick of my work I wanted to tell him. Sick of the life here. But instead I told him because I had to make a choice out of 600 projects for my FYP. And I admitted that I was a bit tired and was about to doze off and was caught by surprise by his sudden appearance. He asked do I need him to come back awhile later and I said no; I am all ready to discuss work now. I demo to him Exp5 and he said excellent. It was what he wanted. But he still asked me to make some adjustments. Then I showed him the bonus technique that I done. I was just showing him for fun but he was scrutinizing the program very carefully. In the end he asked me to make some amendments and asked what kind of experiment can we have for this new technique. Wah Lao. This technique is just a side dish which is supposed to be used to pass time. Now he wants me to prepare something for it. I told him Exp4 is still halfway done. We still need 4 participants for that. And Exp5 we need another 10. He said don’t worry. He would get Franck to get those students to come and do. I thought by showing some progress in work, I would perhaps have some free time in the next few days and thus can go down to the prefecture. Instead I got more tasks.
But I can understand why he needed to rush. My time here is running out. As planned, I am supposed to write my paper in May and now it is already mid April. Actually if I had stopped at Exp3, I am now in fact ahead of time. But with the birth of Exp4, 5 and perhaps 6, I really need to add oil now. On top of that I still have to submit IA report, FYP selection, plan the tour which I am really feeling sian already, etc. That explains my high fatigue level. Xin Li Jiao Cui. I am tired in my brain, tired in my body, tired in my heart.
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