Sometimes in the middle of the night, I would suddenly wake up because the temperature had dropped. Shivering under my blanket, it was almost impossible to get back to sleep. By morning, the wind had died down and the temperature would return to about 5 to 10 degrees. In fact this morning, the weather was almost good. There was no wind and I could walk at ease slowly to my office without worrying that my ears would drop off or that my hands would be numb. I occasionally had dreams here and which were about me packing my stuffs and preparing to come to France! I guessed it was a subconscious effort of my mind that wished that I had not been here in the first place.
As usual I would bathe in the morning but today I found the door to the common bathing area closed! Then I saw a lady walked out of the bathroom with her robe on and that was when I knew about the rule. When a lady is inside bathing, she would close the main door. But does that mean guys can’t enter? But there were more than 1 cubicle inside. Sometimes the door was half closed and I just went in to bathe knowing that someone else was bathing beside me. Maybe half-closed meant that an Agua was inside.
Before I forgot, I ended off yesterday mentioning that I was going to try out the cup noodle. Shiok man!!! It was the first time ever since I arrived that I was able to eat hot meal for dinner. And finally I slept without an empty stomach. Maybe that was why I wasn’t feeling that cold now. This morning I had 2 pieces of bread and hot chocolate (super diluted one) and it was a vast improvement to my previous breakfasts, which consisted only of hot water and a piece of cookie. I wasn’t trying to be mean on myself but I just want to spend meticulously since this was just my first week here. Once I have a rough gauge of how much I would spend and save per month, I would then begin to spend more at ease. My target was to save S$6000 by the end of the attachment. This minus away the $4500 that I spent on the preparations before coming (on digital cam, laptop, air tickets, etc), I would be left with S$1500 to travel a bit after the IA.
But it would be too early to talk about traveling plans now. Back to work. Today I tried to insert the code to make the program achieve my objective but in vain. The resultant effect was below expectation. To think that my supervisor would return on Monday, I was afraid that I might let him down. I really hope he doesn’t ask too much from me. For the most part of my other time in the office, I was chatting with friends over MSN. These included, Hui of course, hoe, alsa and Huixian and zhiwei. I told them that it was really hard to live alone here with so many problems with the language. But it seemed like they did not really understand the turmoil that I was going through.
Alsa and Huixian found it romantic and cool to be in France. It was all an illusion. I don’t know it was just me or what, but it was harder to live here than I expected. Hoe asked me if I wished I had not been here and I said I had that thought during the first few days. Now I felt that if I were to survive this “ordeal”, I would really be “THERE” already, like what Zhiwei always liked to say. So there were not much happenings today, and this I wasn’t sure was a good or bad sign. The good sign would be that I had finally truly settled down and there was nothing new to excite me. OR life would be as dull as today from now on. In any case, I would prefer to have a dull but peaceful life here than one that is exciting but full of troubles. It showed that I am not a very adventurous person after all. My priority here now is first to learn as much as possible in my field of study; second to learn French quickly and lastly to enjoy life here. I am always ready to endure hardship even if that meant eating bread everyday. Think this is my greatest strength.
As usual I would bathe in the morning but today I found the door to the common bathing area closed! Then I saw a lady walked out of the bathroom with her robe on and that was when I knew about the rule. When a lady is inside bathing, she would close the main door. But does that mean guys can’t enter? But there were more than 1 cubicle inside. Sometimes the door was half closed and I just went in to bathe knowing that someone else was bathing beside me. Maybe half-closed meant that an Agua was inside.
Before I forgot, I ended off yesterday mentioning that I was going to try out the cup noodle. Shiok man!!! It was the first time ever since I arrived that I was able to eat hot meal for dinner. And finally I slept without an empty stomach. Maybe that was why I wasn’t feeling that cold now. This morning I had 2 pieces of bread and hot chocolate (super diluted one) and it was a vast improvement to my previous breakfasts, which consisted only of hot water and a piece of cookie. I wasn’t trying to be mean on myself but I just want to spend meticulously since this was just my first week here. Once I have a rough gauge of how much I would spend and save per month, I would then begin to spend more at ease. My target was to save S$6000 by the end of the attachment. This minus away the $4500 that I spent on the preparations before coming (on digital cam, laptop, air tickets, etc), I would be left with S$1500 to travel a bit after the IA.
But it would be too early to talk about traveling plans now. Back to work. Today I tried to insert the code to make the program achieve my objective but in vain. The resultant effect was below expectation. To think that my supervisor would return on Monday, I was afraid that I might let him down. I really hope he doesn’t ask too much from me. For the most part of my other time in the office, I was chatting with friends over MSN. These included, Hui of course, hoe, alsa and Huixian and zhiwei. I told them that it was really hard to live alone here with so many problems with the language. But it seemed like they did not really understand the turmoil that I was going through.
Alsa and Huixian found it romantic and cool to be in France. It was all an illusion. I don’t know it was just me or what, but it was harder to live here than I expected. Hoe asked me if I wished I had not been here and I said I had that thought during the first few days. Now I felt that if I were to survive this “ordeal”, I would really be “THERE” already, like what Zhiwei always liked to say. So there were not much happenings today, and this I wasn’t sure was a good or bad sign. The good sign would be that I had finally truly settled down and there was nothing new to excite me. OR life would be as dull as today from now on. In any case, I would prefer to have a dull but peaceful life here than one that is exciting but full of troubles. It showed that I am not a very adventurous person after all. My priority here now is first to learn as much as possible in my field of study; second to learn French quickly and lastly to enjoy life here. I am always ready to endure hardship even if that meant eating bread everyday. Think this is my greatest strength.
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